I'm the kind of person people depend on. They need me for advice. They need me for moral support. They need me for validation or a kind word or a hug or a quarter for the bus stop or a cigarette. Perfect strangers stop me in line at the store or waiting at the bus stop to tell me their deepest secrets. I look trustworthy, or exude some aura of trustworthiness.
I'm the kind of person people take for granted. If I disappear for a few days, instead of calling me to find out where I am, people wait until I get back to ask what I've been up to. Nobody seems to appreciate me until I'm not around, or wonder where I am until I've been gone for a while.
I want to be the kind of person who enters a room and commands it. I want to be the kind of person people throw surprise parties for. I want to be the kind of person people appreciate when I'm around. I want to be a legend. I want to be present, real, and accounted for. I want to the advice I get to be as good as the advice I give. I want to be. Instead of missing me, I want you to find me.
Posted by lux at September 26, 2003 04:46 PMYou're relatively stable (many are not, so people worry more about their well being).
You've got better manners most of the time, and are more self-assured than the obnoxious who must dominate conversation, or be the center of attention.
That also strikes fear into the obnoxious.
You don't give your love easily, and that scares people who are afraid of being hurt.
Be willing to be scared. Be willing to fail while doing something your friends won't, but do it privately enough that you don't have to be publicly humiliated. Risk everything that's not core to who you are. Try new things, new places, new people. Force yourself to go to the park or the cafe and sit there and read for a couple hours. Go sketch, even if you suck at drawing. Make a plaster of paris mold of your hand. See how long you can stand on your hands against a wall. Get really tired. Stay up all night. Get up before the dawn, and watch the sunrise over Moraga. Swim in the bay.
Posted by: seanbseanbseanbseanbseanbseanb on September 26, 2003 06:35 PMListen to the man. He is the wisest of the wise. And takes great photos as well.
Posted by: Alish on May 21, 2004 05:19 AM